Sunday, May 20, 2007
Finally managed to fork out sometime to update this blog..it had been a month or more since i last blogged..faithful readers must be really bored without me..lol..lately life had been really hectic..chaotic..shitic..It is a month of exams..i dont wanna talk about exams..makes me sick..but good thing is we didn't have to study any new topics these few weeks..having fun..i totally screwed up in the exams..today we got back some papers..i passed english, chinese and emath paper 1..barely passed though..30/60..gotta get at least 27/60 for paper 2 and hope to be saved by ca marks..i doubt so..this is the price i gotta pay for slacking..bet i could've done much better..everyone tells me that..lol..whatever i really gotta buck up for end year exam or i'll be fucked big time..Dad's not letting me go home for holidays..giving me all kinds are bullshits which somehow always manage to hypnotise me into giving in to his words..never had the courage to protest..mum has a point..i always end up blaming her..lol..Dad told me in The Atrium..a bar in Pan Pacific Hotel..that he's gonna force all my talents out like squeezing a towel..and the reason for not letting me go home is that he asked what could i contribute to the house and what could the house contribute to me back at home..what is the need of going home when your mum is trying so hard to get here to sg and you are trying so hard to get back to penang..lol..he's way of reasoning..and im asking too much at the moment..that my requests exceeds my contributions..he said i'll only get the right to request when i show him results..good results of course..what the hell..what could i say..he was right..and three of us..me, mum, unc marshall couldn't talk him into it..stubborn man..the manager at the bar treated me a drink after that..after finding out i'm the son of man who drinks there every night whenever he comes down to sg..Now that exam is over..life certainly feels lighter..with it lifted off my shoulder..having past exam activities starting today..went for sexuality education workshop today..same old stuff..don't do this don't do that..honestly i'll make a better lecturer..lol..enough said..going hongkong this saturday..first day of holiday..i doubt it will be fun..coz i wont get to buy anything much,.as im going with my guardian and family..not mummy..aka..atm machine..lol..nevertheless i get to buy a pair of shoe..and some shirts..mum pays..Love life sucks..Mrs. Right For The Moment just won't show up..it had been more than a year..probably it's the fact that im not trying hard enough everyone keeps telling me...i think i couldn't feel true affection for anyone anymore..and so i don't really try to follow the necessary procedures to make things work..lol..but really hoping to find someone whom i could spend time with alone and she really cares for me..doesn't everyone deserves it huh..no?
